Winter and losing my mind

I'm on week two of no breaks from my kids and I'm coming unglued.

My kids are 2 and 8 months and winters are hard here. My pain condition means outside is too hard for my feet and legs. I'm finding fun things to go do or even within our home but I'm literally touched out and I'm doing everyone alone with two kids.

My husband wants to be intimate at night and I literally cannot be touched or talked to. The toddler is refusing naps so I'm legit not getting a break ever either. I know this is just the season and stage of my kids but I'm getting burned out.

There is no family to help. My husband has to work long hours due to finances. I'm just losing it. I can't wait for the kids to go to bed at night just so I can stay up and be alone. My husband Plays a sport so Sunday nights are his. He also had to fix our snowblower so all day yesterday so I took the kids out of the house. I was supposed to have a night away with friends but got canceled due tofriend getting covid and the other going into early labor. We tried a zoom coffee morning chat but my kids were chaos and my husband was sleeping still. So I legit don't have a break.

I tried to play hard Rock music low while I was cleaning and the kids were in the play room I heard a bad word and I switched it fast but now my toddler is on repeat swearing now. I cannot listen to Rudolf one more time I needed real music for myself. Now my kid is going to Christmas swearing....I'm no fun to he around right now and there is no end in site to when I will ever get a break. Christmas will just be more for me to do without a second to exhale.

Are winters hard for other stay at home mom's?