Feeling confused after a breakup and unable to process

My boyfriend and I just broke up a few days ago right before I flew home to be with my family for Christmas. We broke up because he is moving across the country for work and I still have a year and a half of college left in the city we met. I have been absolutely crushed leading up the breakup and for a few days after. But now I just feel confused and almost numb. I truly have never loved anyone as much as him but when I think about the breakup I don’t feel anything. I almost cry but then no tears come out. I have never felt this way and I know I’m sad but I don’t know how to process what is happening. It’s as if nothing has happened but I think I’m just distracting myself so much with family and holiday stuff that I’m not able to process my emotions. Has anyone else felt this way?