I’ve already told my insurance and got mental health therapy referrals. My doctor is aware bit because of where I live, I can’t get in person help. And the soonest tele-appointment isn’t until Mid February. I started having ticks last night pulling my hair out. I feel like such a loser. I’m hating myself for allowing my life to be the way it is and even more so for being depressed.

I’m so exhausted from this roller coaster. I feel horrible, I’m hella pregnant and feel so bad that my baby is stuck in a body like mine.