Abortion?

So i just found out im pregnant, im waiting for my boyfriend to come home from work to tell him the news, but i know how his reaction is going to be. He’s not going to be happy he’s going to be disappointed i know he doesnt want a baby right now so i dont know what to do. A little backstory i was pregnant with him in the beginning of our relationship and i had an abortion because he didnt want it , i know i wasnt ready either but til this day it still hurts me. Now i still dont feel ready to have a child but if my boyfriend werent opposed to keeping it i would keep it ig what im trying to say is i just need advice what would you guys do? 😪 btw i take bc and i missed a pill 😭