Is pregnancy supposed to scare me this much

Laura

My husband and I want to have a baby soon. But oh my god am I afraid of being pregnant. The thought of something going wrong or dying is what stops me every time. I don’t think I have any health issues, I don’t have insurance so I can’t really get any sort of pre pregnancy check up. Is there any sort of advice I can get to ease this fear/convince me that I’m being irrational? Idk. I’d love some support on this. Cuz we want a baby so bad but I’m really holding us back