We are nearly like the same person, that could have played a part in our downfall. Honestly the relationship was great, we were both very loyal, loving, and laughed all the time. Hardly argued, and if we did, it was solved quickly with amazing respectful communication. It was good. But he has some personal things to figure out, and so do i. He always thought i was out of his league as well and said im so gorgeous, hot and beautiful all the time. He did struggle with insecurities but i would help him and support/ hype him up. So me being ugly or letting myself go wasnt the problem. When we broke up, he suggested we be friends, and we were, and still exclusively fucking oops. He texted me every day for over a year but not this this week. We didnt talk for the past 2 weeks because he went through something very personal that i dont want to share here. But a very valid excuse not to text. But tonight he messaged me again casually, and we are friends again and chat well. At first i had my wall up… but honestly? I think we make great friends. We both care deeply for each other. We both want the best for each other. We both realized this isnt working out romantically. Im not looking to date anyone for a loong time. Im just so focused on myself, my job, started classes again, and excited to pick up some new hobbies. Im okay never speaking to him. Will i be sad? Yes. Will i cry? Probably not. Because im strong and ive been through this shit before with my sons father. Im okay with being friends with him. If he started talking to someone new, the thought might cross my mind, “is this how he felt about me?” “Why didnt he do this for me” but the thought wouldn’t linger. If he doesnt want me he doesnt want me, ill find better. The greatest turnoff for a relationship should be the other person not wanting to be with you. So thats that. or maybe not but im content on my own anyways. We do respect each other dearly, he is not a bad or mean guy. But i do love the friendship that we have, and i know he feels the same way. But its like the right love wrong timing kind of situation..

Because we both have to figure ourselves out more and me more settled in our lives. We both love HARD. And get distracted from our own goals and taking care of ourselves. We really mirror each other. But anyways

I trust that whats meant for me is meant for me. I dont need anyone to make me whole ✨