Wel where do I start I just need to put it somewhere where i can tel someone about whats going on and know that i wil probably not be judged..

so me and my husband been together since 2014 we are 8 years together and almost 3 years married its been hard its been so hard.. so let me start by 2014

2014

We just met and it was amazing and great everything went great until i saw something what i think was cheating he said its not i found him and his ex girlfriend in a dark place in here father's house after he promised it wil not happen and i didn't know that she wil be there so i was so mad that i wanted to pack my bags and leave so he was begging me not to go

fast forward to 2019

this is where my trust issues played a big role in everything because some stuf came oit about those 2 in the dark and since then i can just not trust him at all so 2020 everything was amazing we had the best life then he had his car accident that almost took his life so 2021 he started at a new job everything was oky he started by going to friende drinking and don't tel me anything so then the trust issues stated again so we had a big fight almost got divorced so we sorted everything out now the past 3 months he has been acting very weird always to busy for me telling me i am iterating him and i must rather f of... he ignores me the whole day... i asked him how many times does he want to work om this relationship or not i just can do this shit anymore i feel like the least person on his list.. we fight every day there is not a day that goes by without fighting im trying to fight for this relationship but all i get is get over your self that's everyday 😭 i really just wanted to vent i really don't need negative because i cant talk to him about anything then im the bad one he doesn't trust me but i never ever gave him a reason not to