Ive seen it from people not in my family but from people close to me. I wish i could give up. I wish i could go on a drinking binge for 2 weeks and forget about my worries. But i cant, i have a 2 year old. I want to give up on myself sometimes. Hes the only thing keeping me together. Ive been drinking more often, every night but not to get drunk, only buzzed or tipsy (while hes sleeping and his dad, my ex watches him) I just want to escape for awhile