5am I got an abrupt awakening, my 3yo had gone to her dad’s room and he barged into my room basically throwing her on the bed! I’m 16wks pregnant, we’re not married and don’t think will ever be.

7 years ago when this relationship started I was so excited and happy, the only problem I saw was his obesity which I made my priority to get in track. He’s now a vegan completely healthy obsessed and an absurd jerk to us!

So after he brought the kid in bed to me he went back to sleep, rolled out of his room at 9 made his breakfast ignoring my existence the girls ran to him (my oldest 5) he gave them his phone! At 10 he went back to his room to play on his oculus! 11:30 rolled out to make his lunch, the girls and I sat at the table he took his plate and went in his office..

I put the girls to nap around 1 he left to “clean the snow from HIS car”

Girls woke around 3 , he’d promised to take them sledding, so they go to his room he’d told them once I’m done playing oculus we’ll go! ..4:30 he finally emerged I had gotten them ready he left they returned in 1hr!

Once home he disappeared in his room, then while I was bathing the girls he went to the kitchen to make his dinner went in another room to watch football and back to his room to take a bath with a glass of wine and play oculus!!!

7:20 I had gotten the girls to bed went to check on him he barked at me supposedly was taking 💩, so I went to my room and here I am feeling pathetic as hell:(

Can’t really up and go with 3 kids no $$ (sahm) no family or support in the midst of Covid! Praying I’ll see the light at some point this isn’t healthy..