Discouraged

Ladies,

Are there any breastfeeding support groups up here? I am struggling and feeling discouraged as of late...on my breastfeeding journey. Help please I need to talk to someone.

UPDATE: I just realized I didn't include any of this info...at the time I posted I felt desperate and just needed to reach out. Glow has been a big help for support on my pregnancy journey. And now that I'm struggling with my breastfeeding journey I turned to Glow again. My sweet love was born at 34 weeks and 3 days, I went in for a regularly scheduled appointment and my blood pressure was high. They sent me to the hospital for observation because I was high risk, actually I was the trifecta of high risk (advanced age for my first child, chronic hypertension, & diabetic). They admitted me to the hospital and my blood pressure was erratic, they sent me in for an emergency c-section within 24 hrs of my regularly scheduled appointment. It was a WHIRLWIND to say the least. We had planned on being induced in our 38th week and a vaginal birth. My sweet baby was swept off to the NICU and I couldn't see him for 24 hrs because I was on a magnesium drip. He was in the NICU for the first 2 weeks of his life. In the hospital we concentrated on feeding him a bottle so I pumped and he had a mixture of breastmilk and formula. But when we came home I'm not sure what happened but my supply went down. I had a lactation appointment last week, and it was more of a therapy session for me. My LO latched and fed for 30-40 minutes that session, with no trouble. I thought it was just me, he would get upset and cry because he was feeling my anxiety. I feel like I have this ticking clock in my head. If I don't pump enough or nurse enough ( which he is not soing consistently) then I will lose my milk. I have been on the herbal supplement fenugreek for about 3days and it seems that my supply is going lower. I am even more anxious and absolutely heartbroken at the prospect of NOT being able to nourish my little love from my body. Right now he eats more formula because I am only able to pump 5-10ml from both breasts each pumping session. And we don't latch enough to help the supply. I am frustrated, hysterical at times, and heartbroken. We had such a long difficult journey getting pregnant and now I'm afraid I can't nourish my baby. 😭😭