This is gonna be somewhat long, but bear with me.

I had an abusive father and when I got older I was in a series of abusive or otherwise bad relationships. I also struggled with bulimia, depression, anxiety and panic attacks.

In 2019 I got out of a long-term and very abusive relationship with my ex. By that time I was in therapy and was doing so good that my doctor started lowering my antidepressant dosage. I started taking pole dance classes and working out regularly. Developed healthy eating habits, stopped weighing myself, etc.

End of fall of 2019 I met my current partner. I was in a very good mental state and the relationship was good. We moved in together a year into dating, got engaged, I found out I was pregnant and everything was good. Once our son was here shit kinda went south real quick. I caught him lying here and there on small things, found some shit on his phone, etc. not really relevant because I forgave him and decided to stay.

However, that had a toll on my confidence. That and the fact that my body went through some changes, some permanent, that I now have to make peace with. It’s in no way nearly as bad as I used to be years ago and nothing therapy can’t solve (which I’m starting again tomorrow, btw). But in the meantime, I want to do things to make me feel better about myself. To make me love myself and like myself again, ya know? I want to enjoy my body and see myself beautiful again.

Anyways, any tips, advice or support would be appreciated. 💕