Hello!

I am now 5 months postpartum. I had a traumatizing emergency c-section. I had undiagnosed placenta accreta, hemorrhaged and needed 4 liters of blood, plasma, I had severe preeclampsia, HELLP syndrome, and my uterus and placenta were infected. I didn't get to hold my daughter after she was born for a whole day due to being hooked up to monitors and being pumped full of many different medications. They found I had a blood clot in my leg that they think may have been reabsorbed but was not sure. My husband and I both thought I was going to die and that feeling never went away for me. I constantly feel like something is wrong. During my second trimester I was diagnosed with PVC, and I thought it went away after my daughter was born. Recently i have felt the PVC's again and will have difficulty breathing. I have had 2 panic attacks in the last week and cannot stop obsessing over my health. I am so scared I am going to die and leave my husband alone with my baby girl. I have postpartum anxiety and I think that is what's going on. I did go to the doctors today to have blood work done to check if I still show signs of blood clotting. If I do they will send me for scans to see if I have clots in my lungs. I just want to know if other mommies have the same issue as me. I could use someone (that isn't expensive) to talk to. ❤❤