Is anyone else struggling to feel connected to their pregnancy?

Does anyone else have a hard time feeling connected with their baby during pregnancy? I hate feeling like this. My husband and I tried for a year and had some complications with our first and miscarried, we weren’t able to try and conceive again until almost another year later. I’m currently 18w, and I really am excited but I’m also struggling to feel connected. We don’t know the gender yet, so using nicknames like “nugget” has been our go to. I’ve also had a pretty easy time with minimal symptoms. Hearing the news that there was a heartbeat at all and then hearing it for the first time was probably the most excited I’ve been. But I have a hard time day to day, talking or singing to them seems silly, and people touching my belly makes me super uncomfortable. And I’m a very goofy and touchy feely big emotions person in general! We also just got the news about our genetic screening coming back with signs of possibly DS, which I don’t know how to prepare for. I work in the field of special needs and the thought of it being every aspect of my life is terrifying. Just sharing and wondering when everyone else actually started feeling like a mom.