Am I wrong for caring so much?

In 2020 for my first child, my husband and I organized our own baby shower. Covid clearly had other plans and after rescheduling the shower twice, we had no choice but to cancel it. We returned or sold all the decorations and cancelled the location and food like it never happened. We did throw our own little party for just the two of us for the sake of celebrating our miracle rainbow baby. I feel that all babies should be celebrated in some way or another.

Now we are wanting to have another baby shower. This time, for our twins. We were expecting three but lost one. We want to throw another shower this time understanding how Covid works and doing it safely. We find out the genders soon which isn’t a big deal to us because we wholeheartedly love them no matter what. But I can’t help but feel like people will be mad because it’s not our first child. I know some people will understand our triplet loss and I know some people will only think it’s ok to have a baby shower if it’s the opposite gender from what we already have. But what if the twins are both the same genders as our first? Are we not allowed to celebrate?

We genuinely just want to celebrate our again miracles and rainbow babies. We have very few things from our first baby and do have a registry but I kept all the clothes and we miss our family and friends and just want to see everyone. It’s already been a rough end to 2021 and start of 2022 pregnancy wise.

Am I wrong for caring so much about hosting another party? (Safely of course).

Am I wrong for wanting to do this?

Please be kind. I’m already mixed about how to feel.

Thank you for your time.