I don't know if anyone will see this but I feel like I just need to write.. I don't even know what to write I just feel so empty and that I have no one to really talk to. I lost my mother when I was 21 I have a 11 month old baby and it's just really hard, my partner is working and I'm staying at home and I feel like it can be so overwhelming sometimes when there are so many days with screaming all day and all I want sometimes is to just have a day to myself and really for me not staying at home cleaning and fixing things around the house but I just feel like it's hard to leave the house. I don't even know what I'm saying nothing is clear in my mind right now. I'm sorry if I'm sounding dramatic to but I just don't know how to explain myself anymore I just feel so tired and frustrated that I start doing good for some days and again I just fall into the same hole again.