In 2018 my son was still born on 1/11. This day has always been super hard for me since then. Now in 2022 I was blessed with my daughter on 1/11 as well. This was a huge fear of mine that they would share a birthday. I keep hearing the “oh he sent her to you it’s special” but for me it’s not special it’s painful. I’m very traumatized about it to be honest and I’m not sure how to feel. I feel like it’s affecting the bond between me and my newborn due to severe ppd. Breastfeeding has not been going well due to it making me irritated and annoyed honestly and I feel awful to say that but I just feel so touched out all the time. I wish I could understand why I feel that way and other moms say it’s a special time with baby and relaxes them. Just makes me feel more depressed and ashamed like a failure to her🥺 I don’t really know where I’m going with this post i I guess I’m just very overwhelmed right now…