It feels like nothing goes right anymore, there is no luck in your life, just so done... Starting from my husband wanting to get a divorce and the next day you find out he's already been talking at least on Snapchat for 64 days before he decided that there was nothing else we can do to save our marriage, it's been 10 months since we got separated, since then he's been with that girl and their baby is due on June, why me...😭 He only takes the kids two times a week, so I work both nights, never have time for myself, because he rather work a lot then see his kids. I'm in relationship with this guy now, he's literally the best guy ever, so caring, so loving, but something is missing and I can't stand it, I miss my husband, I still love him, but I would never be with him, because he never treated me the way every man supposed to treat a woman. Like what do I do, I'm with my boyfriend to this day cause it keeps my head busy, makes me forget about my ex, but do I really love my boyfriend? I really care about him, I need him around, kids love my boyfriend, he's great, but not great enough to make me forget my ex husband, it kills me so much... I have a heart condition that I'll need a surgery soon, finally after almost 10 years they will try to fix the problem, I've been living in fear for so long, now I have to worry about the surgery too.. I just can't do it anymore, I'm in such a deep shit, don't even have close friends here where I live, no family, luckily I have 2 wonderful kids, very handful, raising two young kids alone it's so fcking hard, but wouldn't change it for the world.. My head is always full of problems😭😭😭