i’ve been married for 12 years. my husband is foreign and in this marriage i have helped him to gain citizenship, become a business owner and a homeowner 3x over. We have loved deeply. We married at a chapel and never had an extravagant wedding, no fancy ring. It was love and I’m not that kind of person to hold material things as very important. We didn’t have money we were 26. We had our first daughter 2018 after many years of marriage together, traveling and working. She was conceived via <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>. we recently moved to my home state which just made sense following the pandemic. I wanted to have a natural pregnancy this time because the birth of my daughter was very difficult with a myriad of issues that I’m still recovering from. Well we got pregnant naturally and found out mid February. We were both so thrilled. Well he cheated on me. The woman outed him by texting me. If she hadn’t i’m not sure if i would’ve ever found out. However I have noticed changes in him since his mother passed last winter.

So, I’m devastated and carrying this burden (because of his actions) and that is effecting my work, my pregnancy. I feel trapped, I feel pissed after all I put into this marriage his apology and agreement to want to work with therapy, just as the days go by, I’m not sure I want to. But my daughter is so excited about the baby and he is an excellent father. He wants to fix things and admits his mistake. I have no doubt he loves me but I don’t think I have anything left to give. I’m wiped out. I can barely sleep myself. I don’t know what to do to just to be able to get out of bed and get on with my day and get my daughter to school without tears. To top it off a childhood friend passed away and I received news of this the same day. Also I’ve been cramping since this news and it feels a bit strange (like diarrhea or contraction feeling) but no bleeding. We had a miscarriage last year so of course that’s on my mind.