I was raped a couple weeks ago by my now ex boyfriend, and my now boyfriend completely understands but anytime he goes to give me a hug I start crying and pushing him away like I’m scared he’s going to do what my ex boyfriend and it haunts me everyday, I can’t lay in my bed, the same bed he raped me in, I can’t wear my favorite dress, the dress I wore on the day of the rape, I can’t hug anyone because it gives me panic attacks about the rape, but he wants to message me and say he’s sorry for what he did and he won’t let it happen again, but I kissed my new boyfriend for the first time and my ex came up behind me and started beating me in front of the whole school screaming “that’s right scream you little girl” and i luckily left with a bunch of bruises and scrapes, but it’s still terrifying to think that he may have killed me if no one would have helped because he had a knife and he went to go reach for it by he was taken away from me, all I want is for life to be normal again