Im so frustrated and sad right now and needed to talk with someone. I want to talk with my husband about it, but because it involves him and I think it would only make him feel bad and that's last thing I want to do is hurt him.

So about 6 years ago I had a miscarriage and five years ago I found out that I am hypo thyroid and the next year was diagnosed with Hoshimotos. The year after I requested to have a medicine change to the name brand of Synthroid, however my general physician refused to do any and all changes, but my Endocrinologist would do it, but wouldn't allow anything else. I asked because I was having trouble breathing and it made me feel very sick. The Synthroid wasn't much better and gave me horrible allergies and sensitivities that whole summer. I went from almost no issues to more than I can deal with at one time. I tried and begged with them to try a different medication, but I was told that this was the best medicine and that they wouldn't change it.

I had hives across my face that entire summer until I found out it was because of apples and anything in that family. Which is a pretty vast family. I can only eat maybe 14 things right now without either pain, inflammation, or an allergic reaction.

Olive oil, chicken cooked very dry, salmon cooked very dry, sweet potatoes, bananas, American mined salt, a very small amount of garlic powder maybe once a week, broccoli twice a week, water, a serving of Lactaid every other day, pomegranates. That's what I can remember off the top of head.

The meat has to be cooked very thoroughly or I get diarrhea. I don't honestly know why. I don't know or understand why any of this is happening.

I keep having allergic reactions to my husband if he eats pork or trees nuts. I have tons of heavy spotting, clotting and bad cramping and then my vagina peels off and cracks. I can't take anything for the cramps because ever since I've been having issues Tylenol or any other pain reliever makes the pain 3 times worse. There's nothing I can put in or on my lady bits because I am allergic or sensitive to Neosporin or other antibiotics. I can't take antibiotics or steroids. No doctor or specialist of any sort had ever been able to help me. I've had to figure this out all on own.

I got a new Endocrinologist last year who changed my meds to an allergy free version called Tirosent, which changed my life for the better.

My husband accidentally got some pork at a restaurant from a meal that was supposed to be pork free last December a few days before Christmas. I had reactions to him for 3 weeks. We are just finishing the sperm that were made with the pork protein currently and I

Was starting the healing process next week, but now the place where we get our turkey pepperoni and sausage apparently cross contaminated everything and my husband who is allergic to pork as well had his gums swell up after eating it and his skin became rashy and red. He's had diarrhea too. That means I'm now in for 3 more months of allergic reactions, healing. The worst part is the sperm because they don't stay in the vagina they make their way up and inside and it burns for hours. I know that it's going to happen again. That we will have lost 6 months out of this year for trying to get pregnant and after almost 8years of trying to get pregnant I feel so disappointed. This isn't my husbands fault, but I don't want him to touch me or me touch him because I don't want him to think I want sex with him. I don't want another reaction. It's so unfair and selfish of me, but my heart feels crushed right now. I feel like I've clawed my way up a mountain only to start sliding back down and a I'm grasping at limbs trying to stop myself from going down to far. I feel like I'm crazy and some friends and people don't believe me about all of this. They think I'm making it up. I just want to crawl into bed and cry for such a long time. This isn't everything I've struggled with health wise, but this is most of the heavy stuff. I just needed to get this out. Thanks to all who took the time to read this.