My due was on 16th March 2022 , it's like my body knows something was suppost to happen.

I keep doing test , we are not trying ,

I know I'm just getting my self more upset every time it comes back negative

But after 1st loss and then the 2nd , all so early on , I never got to have that bright shining test that u could say for 100% it was postive. All of mine where so light.

I never got to that happy stage with the both of us being happy about the baby, we lost both when we both where still so scared .

There is just a yerning inside of me wanting to replace what I loss.

That's why I came on here so I can feel normal . So I know there are people on here so understand how I am feeling because I don't get that with my partner as he was sad we loss them but he also said it wasn't the right time , maybe it happened for a reason. I don't need that , I know it wasn't the right time. But it still lingers In me . It still hurts.