Over it

Warning going to be a long rant.

So my husband and I have been married for almost two years, and we have a 13 month old daughter together, he’s also in the military.

Well I’m a STAHM for my daughter and that’s what we both wanted when I was pregnant cause we at the time couldn’t afford daycare or any type of child care so it was easiest for us. I worked up until I was about 6 months pregnant but then I got fired and since I was so close to my due date we figured it was pointless to find a job for 3 months and then quit cause we were moving shortly after and I was staying home. So I haven’t worked since I was 6 months pregnant.

Fast forward to now, my husband is currently deployed for a very long time we don’t know when he’s coming back but we know it’s not this year. So I’m taking care of my daughter and running errands and groceries and everything else.

He blew up on me for spending too much money, and I think I’m entitled to spend as much as I want because it’s not my money and if I had my own money then I wouldn’t be spending it so much. And how if I don’t get it under control hes gonna cancel my card and I’m driving us apart. mind you I have only bought NECCESSARY things recently the most “ unnecessary thing” I’ve bought was a 1$ Easter basket for my daughter from target dollar bin.. I know big spender🙄

This isn’t the first time he has done something like this I told him I wanted to get my hair done as a change cause I’ve lost myself in mother hood and it’s been a hairstyle I’ve wanted to do since I was about 13 years old and I found a really good place to do it for around 200$ and his response was start selling stuff and or do instacart to make your own money to pay for it.

He doesn’t see the money he makes for our family as ours and we all use it, he sees it just as his and only his and I’m a burden to him cause I depend off of him.

I would love to go back to work but I’m unable to right now because of our location there isn’t a open day care ( we live in a very bad town where base is located ) so I feel so stuck.. and I’m tired of being told I’m nothing and I can’t do anything just cause I don’t have a job