April was our fourth month to try for our first baby. I got a BFP all through 8-13 DPO…. Around day 14 I didn’t notice any more lines & I decided I was being paranoid and to stop testing. I told mine and my husbands parents, made an OB appt, started looking up nursery’s… Today I started bleeding & told the owner of the spa I work at (who is a Nurse Practitioner) & she explained Chemical Pregnancy… we took a blood test to be sure, but I know in my heart that’s what happened. I had to cancel my last clients because I honestly didn’t know how to process it. I feel selfish partly for being upset even though it was so early, guilty for telling the grandparents and getting them excited & a little dramatic that I feel all these emotions. But I needed a place to vent and hopefully find someone else who may find comfort that they are not alone in these feelings (and comfort for me to know I’m not alone).

On to month 5..