In 2013, I lost the first child I had and ever loved.. While it took a toll on me, I received the news that I suffer from PCOS ! It’s been hard trying to convince myself that it’s okay and I’m out of options.. I’m only 25 and I do want to have kids and start a family.. Seems like the product and medicine I was on started to work but shortly after I learn of double lines on a pt one day to the next day my second unborn child lying in the toilet as a fetus. My life has had so many changes and it’s sent me into a deep depression but I’m still trying to think positive even on my bad days of where I want to give up.. This is just part of my story. I really really do want kids. At times I feel like I’m less than a woman because I can’t give my fiancé any kids… Though, he doesn’t knock me for not getting being able to pregnant and he says he understands and he loves me no matter what but as a woman I feel like at times like a failure.. He reassures me and let me know that everything will be okay and eventually we will produce but I feel like he just says it make me feel better…