Feeling a bit down 🥺

I thought my body had finally returned to normal after being on BC for about 5 years. My cycles had gotten down to around 38 days until my last cycle was 110 days🥺 AF only came after a round of Medroxyprogesterone. We’ve been trying since May and I can’t help but think it’s me. I’ve had three ultrasounds & all have came back clear but I was told I have polycystic ovaries although she doesn’t want to diagnose me with PCOS. I just don’t know what to do. I know it’s not good to get so caught up in my head but it’s hard. Don’t get me wrong I love seeing my family/friends announce their pregnancies but I can’t help but think when will it be my turn. Not posting this for sympathy but more so because I have no one to vent to these things about! I have a follow up ultrasound Monday so hopefully it bears good news🤞🏾