High Blood Pressure

Have had mid/high blood pressure since being pregnant but it spiked at my appointment last week and then again at this weeks where I had to go get a non stress test and was put on blood pressure medicine and doing a 24hr urine collection to test for pre eclampsia.. I’m 30 weeks still have 8 weeks left, and now I’m so worried and anxious I feel like I can’t enjoy these last few weeks of pregnancy & feel so jealous of the other peoples pregnancy’s that don’t have complications. It also makes me scared for if I wanted to have more kids in the future, like will I always have high blood pressure issues? All I wanted was to have a happy healthy pregnancy.. It is so overwhelming and all the hospital tests are just making the bills pile up.. I feel so down, scared and alone. 😞