Not part of my plan.

I've been going through prodromal labor for 4 weeks now. I'm 41 weeks getting induced tonight. I feel defeated for not going into true labor spontaneously. Emotionally I'm a mess this isn't what I wanted. I wanted a completely natural unmedicated birth. I sleep at all hours of the day because my depression and exhaustion are so bad. My husband hasn't wanted anything to do with me for a long time now. I've been going through absolute torture crying alone for 4 weeks. All that work my body is doing not having any progress is debilitating. My family hates induction because "baby will come when it comes" but at this point I have so little energy because of my prodromal labor If I wait any longer I don't know if I can do it.