Sex after baby and abuse

MommaJay • Just here for the tea

So I just ahd my baby a while ago and I was abused by an ex for a while. He left like 5 month ago and he was the only person ive really done stuff with like orgasming on a vibe around him and shit. Now I cant seem to do it with my husband and I dont know how to get out of my head 🙃 I need to orgasm so bad but I want to with hubby. Any advice?