I’m so conflicted - gender

Jessica • 30 | pcos | Due Oct 2022 | getting induced in September

I’m having my 20 week scan tomorrow. I want to find out the sex of my baby when he/she is born in October. BUT part of me wants to find out tomorrow! I feel so conflicted ! But I don’t have any idea if it’s a girl or boy and honestly don’t have a preference ! Im so excited but have proper conflicted feelings as to whether I should find out !

EDIT :- I didn’t find out and baby is looking healthy and there aren’t any concerns xx