In my 32 years of life, I have noticed a trend that I tend to “attract” or find myself drawn to people with problems. I’ve never had a healthy friendship because my friends tend to be people with various issues. My lifelong best friend is a diagnosed narcissist from an affluent family of drug abuse. My other best friend is a mother of two small children and they live in extreme poverty, only being able to afford to live in a single bedroom in someone else’s house. Previously, I’ve had very close friendships with suicidal people, people with drug addiction, people with extreme mental health problems.

What’s strange is that I am not like that. I had a very average childhood with involved parents and financially stability. I’m now in a very normal marriage/situation in my life where I can afford to stay at home with my children in a home we own without any major issues or dramas in our life. My friendships are always so riddled with problems and drama that I have no idea what a healthy friendship looks like. I’ve tried to join local Facebook groups to meet people, talk to various neighbors, etc. but I can’t “click” with people who don’t have some type of craziness going on in their lives. We talk for a day or two and I lose interest or they lose interest in me. Why on earth is it like this? Why can I only be friends with people on fire? Is it something wrong with me?