I plan on making an appointment with my ob but I got my first positive test 6/6, I was having symptoms from a few days before 6/6 (off and on nausea, lack of appetite, sore nipples, bloating - couldn’t fit into my scrubs) from like 6/7 to 6/9 I had spotting, that stopped. For some reason all of my symptoms suddenly stopped as well and have not returned, any residual symptoms have now gone. I am no longer bloated, my breasts are no longer full, firm or heavy like they were last week and my spotting has returned. It ranges from a deep red to light brown. I took a test yesterday and the positive line is still dark.

I want nothing to do with this process anymore and it has made my depression/life worse. I’ve been severely depressed since my first test and these confusing symptoms aren’t helping. I kind of just want it to end and this anxiety/despair to be over with. Having lupus and working full time is hard enough to manage as is, I have no idea why I thought I was ready for this and I regret everything that’s happened.