Advice needed

Honestly if you are just going to say "well why didn't you leave" then you don't understand how hard it is to just up and leave this kind of relationship.

My man and I have been together for almost 4 years. It's one of those relationships where one day is good the next day is terrible or a few hours Is good then here comes the bad time.. he constantly cheated on me and everything. He has a bad temper and constantly yells at me.. no matter what I do .. it's not good enough.. we had our son this January and after he changed for the first two-three weeks... he was always clingy, always helping out, and always saying he appreciated me for giving him this opportunity.. but as time went on he went back to his old self (except he doesn't cheat.) He constantly yells at me, blames me for everything, will yell at me in front of our son, always wants to be alone, curses me out etc.. luckily he has never put his hands on me. We live with my mom and grandmother and he will yell at me in front of them.. embarrasses me in front of his friends . Talks shit about me to his friends... even told his first baby mom that he was only with me cuz of our son... i honestly feel like it's just getting worse and worse... i honestly don't know If its because his stressed out with constantly working (I'm a stay at home mom) and his baby mom taking him to court. I honestly don't know.. I try to do everything I can for him and our child.. im constantly taking care of our child without his help... he gets mad at everything... I offered to do couple therapy but he doesn't like that idea... although he treats me like shit, he is a great father to our son. I'm getting to the point where I don't think I can do this anymore.. he doesn't like to talk about our problems or anything. He doesn't like to go out and do family things like take a walk or visit family or whatever. He wants to constantly stay on the video game. He knows I have severe anxiety which makes it hard to work a job but yelled at me telling me I don't have my shit together because I'm not working or making money.. he thinks I'm constantly laying around and doing nothing at home while he's at work. But I take care of our 5 month old who barely naps and goes to sleep at 3 in the morning. Yeah my boyfriend is up that late but its because of video games not him trying to put his son to sleep with me. I wake up all the time with our son, I do it all. If I say help me give him a bath he yells at me to do it myself.

I'm not like his 2 exes who ended up cheating on him with his friends. I've been loyal since day one.

I'm getting to the point where I don't want to be with him anymore and I feel like im waiting for a miracle for him to change.