First Time Pregnant & Terrified 😣

A few weeks ago I started having insane Restless Leg Syndrome after never experiencing it before in my life. My period was late by 9 days so I took a test (below). I’m currently at 5 wks, 3 days with the RLS, light cramps and nausea.

I was on the pill, took it religiously for almost 15 years, so this was unplanned. At first I was thinking about not keeping it/not having a baby until my boyfriend and I are married, that was my first reaction. I have never been against abortion before. But the past couple of days I’ve struggled with the idea, weighing the logical side of doing it and then my emotions about going through with it. It’s extremely early, but part of me is starting to feel like I would regret the abortion. My boyfriend supports me either way and says it is my choice. I’m worried the stress of an unplanned pregnancy would strain our relationship, I by no means take this lightly and think it is a lot of work to raise a child even when married.

I have no idea what I’m feeling, it’s happiness knowing I can get pregnant I guess (kind of a weird thought) but upset I have to make this decision by myself, rather than it coming at a planned time when there’s only one option.

Sorry for the rant - need some words of wisdom right now 😣 these hormones are definitely affecting me!

To anyone trying to conceive/who struggled to conceive, I hope this doesn’t come off as insensitive in light of what you’ve been through, that is totally not my intention at all. Just feeling very scared.