If only I could know

sade

I just want to experience a healthy genuine kind of love from a partner for once.. I’m so happy for the women that do but a part of me is jealous that I never have experienced it. Sometimes I feel like God has punished me and idk why bc if I did I would fix it or try to. I always have given unconditional genuine love in my past relationships but I don’t know what it feels like to live that way. At 33 I’ve given up on it pregnant all