I dread getting sick

I hate getting sick...not because of the sickness itself. That part sucks. But the worst part is how my husband acts when I get sick. He is so mean to me and our children. You know how it is when moms get sick...we usually just take some medicine...keep going on with our duties. But once in awhile we get hit with a sickness that requires some help.. I woke up all night last night with sinus pain. I've had multiple sinus infections before so I know this is what it is. I didn't get any sleep lastnight and when I woke up I texted my husband letting him know how awful I felt... he surprised me by kindly offering to come home from work to help me. With the kids we have running around and the house needing cleaned up I really needed to rest and try to get into the doctor. He called me on his way home angry telling me he was devastated. I was really confused at that point and felt like crying...I didn't ask him to come home but i acepted his offer ...but I knew now it was too late now and I was going to be stuck all day with that attitude and feeling awful. My doctor can't see me until tomorrow and my husband insisted since he took the day off that we go to urgent care to get antibiotics...3 hours later the doctor is majorly concerned with my eye thats swollen and beat red. I told him it's from my allergies and sinus but he made me go next door to the eye clinic to have it checked out...all of this with my Tylenol from this morning wearing off...if you have had a sinus infection you know how bad it hurts.. but I wasn't complaining. My husband was. Cussing at me and the kids and I basically had to hold him back from going into scream at the doctor for not giving me any antibiotics for my sinus . Anyway the eye doctor said it was allergies and probably a sinus infection. So yeah it was annoying we got no help and were sitting around for 4 hours at 2 different offices. The whole way home my husband was driving and scaring me..yelling and cussing some more. Saying that I wasted his whole day. I told him I needed a nap when we got home because my face is throbbing and my eye hurts. Now I laid down for the past two hours but didn't sleep maybe more than 30-40 minutes... all I can hear is him cussing and talking bad about me to himself and how he didn't get to do any projects he wanted today and how he needs a break and all this and that...telling our kids to shut up and yelling at them. I feel awful... mostly for my kids. I really just needed a kind hand today so I can take care of our family like I usually do everyday but instead my husband is slamming dishes around while he unloads the dishwasher and angry because he had to pick up the slack for me. I wish marriage was 100 -100. I wish I was treated better...I wish my kids were talked to kindly. Sometimes I wish I could just runway eth my babies. It's not always like this.. but mostly it is. Sometimes I don't like my husband... is that wrong to think. :( just needed to vent...I have no one to talk to...