Am I depressed or just exhausted ?

I don’t know anymore if I am just exhausted and sleep deprived or already depressed!

I have two kids (3 years and 1 year old), I love them to bits! But it’s so hard! Both of them don’t sleep through the night. The little one still gets breastfeed during the nights twice! Sometimes he clings on my breast for hours during the night! Then at 5ish the older one joins and wants a cuddle.

Getting up at 7 is hard! My husband supports me and brings the older on to the nursery. I get up, clean, feed, prepare lunch, lunchbox and dinner and time is up! It’s 1ish and I have to pick up my daughter. We spend most of the day at the playground as we just have a small flat and she gets bored at home.

I don’t have time for showers or yoga. We don’t have any support. Everyday our to do list gets longer. My mother just comments on how she also managed with two kids and I should just pull myself together as I wanted kids it my fault.

I am so often close to a breakdown.

We moved here two years ago and I don’t have a lot of friends here.

My husband works all day and I do feel lonely. I try to socialise but most mothers just annoy me even more! Here are a lot of trust fund babies around! They don’t understand me and just say that my hubby should work less, hahaha!