Ugh, I hate being due in the summer!

Seriously, it sucks.

It's warm, I feel like shit, I can't sleep due to heat or BH or whatever and then there is the whole "Who the **** can watch our kid if I have to give birth in July?"..

And the answer is apparently "Who knows?"..

All my family lives far away. And they're fairly distant in relation as well. I'm very close with my in laws. But both MIL and FIL is prioritizing some vacation this year. And that's nice and they honestly fully deserve it, but it just leaves one week of July where, if I was to give birth, I would have no idea who to call to get our oldest.

And it's been bugging me for months and I still haven't found any other solution either than "I'll just have to not give birth then!"..

And it's just getting too close now. It scares me. I'm so sad because I can't prep our daughter and I know prepping her is key to accepting this.

I'm just exhausted worrying about this 😩

And I'm just overall exhausted and tired already.

My mood is either "Life is great!" or "****I'm too exhausted to do anything how am I gonna deal with two kids in a bit!"