I just don’t know anymore

I try so hard for my husband to see that I’m trying to do and be a better wife, mother and all around good person. This morning I got up with the baby like I always do and I was picking up and doing what I normally do ( pick up all the trash and put things away ) while he stayed asleep on the couch ( it’s hot in our room so he sleeps in the living room under the A/C unit until we get one in here) which is no big deal he deserves all the rest he can get. But she goes down for her 2nd nap and I try to get more done faster because it’s the only time I can do anything without watching her and her siblings. He sits at the computer and talks to his uncle while I’m cleaning ( trying to ) he then tells me we need to clean up more before they get here to pick up the tv stand I of course do it but it’s not enough we get into an argument and he’s just gets so hateful and always says things like “ I wish you’d pack your shit and go back to your moms “ “ I don’t want to live in a cultured house anymore “ ( we kinda just moved in but I’ve also had all the kids here ) then he had asked me to move something that got broken which I was on my way to do something else so I set it down and accidentally forgot about it. He walks out and says “ are you fucking stupid I told you to fucking hide it but you leave it out wtf if wrong with you “ there’s more said but you guys get the gist of it and after he says all that he’s like I love you and I don’t want you to leave I just get so frustrated and I feel like I have To do everything alone ( which he doesnt) I try to get everything done when they are sleeping but whenever they are sleeping he’s like can we fool around which I always say yes to because he says “ I don’t deserve to be told no I do everything for you” there’s more but I don’t want to type it . Then I just feel so freaking alone and useless that I can’t do anything right…