Im dealing with a lot of mixed emotions with this pregnancy as well as dealing with a feeling of disconnect from this baby. I have three children and with each I've had an instant feeling of connection to them from the moment I knew of their existence. My last pregnancy was also emotionally difficult since we had lost our second born, our son, to SIDS a month after he was born. Especially when I found out I was having another boy. To preface what I'm about to say all my children have all been born on their due dates. This time I am struggling with the fact that this child's due date is the same as my second born's birthday. Im absolutely terrified if it's another boy as well. We also didn't plan this pregnancy so it feels like this jumped out at me. Where with my third I felt like I had mentally prepared for dealing with what would be an emotionally difficult time. I wanted more children but I definitely didn't expect it to happen now. I definitely feel excited but the moment I stop I feel so overwhelmed. I also have dealt with many miscarriages so I'm also worried about losing the baby. It just feels like I'm feeling every emotion at once rn.