I feel so bad. Baby was just born 6 weeks ago and I feel completely overwhelmed. My husband and I own 3 small businesses. It was already tough for me during pregnancy (I had a csection and a lot of other issues because of a 12cms fibroid) and also after - had to have another surgery 15 days after delivering baby because of this fibroid, again) but now I feel like I am drowning. Baby is sometimes very happy and nice, sometimes super fussy. The thing is he takes all my time. I knew of course he would need a lot of time, but I didn’t expect him to cry so much or wake up every 30 minutes. I haven’t been able to work properly for 2 months and my clients are all chasing me, sending me tons of emails, and I don’t blame them (I am a wedding planner) but I wake up every morning with 50 new emails knowing baby will not let me answer to any of them. And I am getting more and more and more anxious every day. My husband helps also but we have to pay our bills and he has to run our other businesses. I feel powerless and cry most of the time. I usually control everything I do and I am successful at work. But with baby, I feel so bad, I think I am a bad mother, I am stressed all the time and I know he feels it. So we took the decision to take him to daycare. He is only 6 weeks old and I feel so bad about that, and I am so stressed about him not being able to sleep (he needs so much silence home to sleep!!) or him getting sick… but if we don’t do that I know my company will have huge problems very soon and we can’t afford loosing our most important business or we won’t be able to pay our bills anymore. At first I wanted to take him at 8 weeks after he got his shots but daycare called me today saying they had an opening for him and I am SO tired I think it’s the best option. When I was a child my mother was suffering from depression and my sister and I had to do and learn everything alone (my mom has been to the hospital for 3 years and child services never heard of that or we would have been taken away) and I always told myself « if someday you have a baby you will do everything to make him happy » and now I feel like I am just a failure.

So if some of you sent your babies to daycare so young can reassure me I would really appreciate…!thank you.