Had my first bfp Monday, had a blood draw same day it was a 16 at 14dpo. Today at 17dpo the line is pretty much gone, I go for my second draw today and just wanted to mentally prepare myself for the results. A year ago this month we had our first loss, and then January my doctor believes it was a second loss, and now this one does not seem likely to stick. I know I have two boys already and am so grateful for them, but we just want one more to add to our family. Why is this happening? I know it took long to conceive our boys, but we didn't have losses during those times. What has changed?! I just want to curl up and cry.