Black Hole

My story is not unique, grand or new. There’s a lot to be said, and a lot left to do. I once dreamt of lights, dresses, and veils. I once dreamt of dancing and wedding bells. I knew by year two we weren’t strong. But 4 years more, now 3 months gone. Our daughter was born 3 years ago. I believed all the lies, all the words that you swore. Darkness shrouded my once happy heart. When you did the one thing that could tear us apart. 3 years ago I found out about her. Should I leave? I wasn’t sure. In some twisted way you convinced me to stay. But the once happy girl died that day. Life became bleak, all my passions were gone. I don’t know why I stayed so long. Day by day I tried to rebuild. I cooked, I cleaned, I paid all the bills. I thought I was doing the right thing for me. I see the truth now, I see what I need. Regardless of things I did or said, I could not keep you in only our bed. 3 months ago I said I was done. 3 months ago I took our daughter and ran. I was scared I would hurt her by not having you here. But guess what? She doesn’t care. “Mommy so pretty” she told me today. Mommy is happy, mommy is free. We laugh, we run, we style our hair. We play dress up, and makeup without a care. I realize what love is without a man. It’s my sweet baby girl, holding my hand. I need nothing more in life then this. Falling asleep to a goodnight kiss. I’m not here to say life is easy or perfect. But for now this is completely worth it. While I may stumble I will not fall. Want to know the best part of all? I can feel myself pick up all the pieces. I’m not longer stuck in the black hole abyss.