I regret getting married?!

I don’t know the purpose of my post but just feel like venting. I never really wanted to get married, was never my priority I guess and now I sometimes regret being married. Like I could take or leave getting/being married but my backwards crazy African culture (specifically where I’m from) demands I must be married before living with a man and having kids with them. Thankfully, I realised in enough time that I didn’t want kids either before I get into that and regret it and I am absolutely not letting the pressure of my stupid culture sway my decision on that. Thankfully my husband is on board.

I’m literally a free spirit and I feel ‘trapped’. Its not all bad, my husband isn’t a bad man but I hate how most men are just ‘man children’. Like I hate how most mental and physical load of a relationship fall on the woman. Why are the female population automatically conditioned to ‘look after’ the male population? It’s BS. I’ve only in the last few years got my husband to start taking responsibilities for our home after threatening to end the marriage if he didn’t start pulling his weight. Why do men think we’re their mothers? I know its not all men but its most men. Like how dare he think I should be responsible for all these things when I literally pay for half of everything. I always secretly hope most of the time that he will just leave me.

If I could go back in time, I will just have a man that I have a casual, no strings attached relationship with. And just continue to be a ‘career woman’ like I am. I really am independent and can look after myself and I don’t necessarily feel like a man ‘completes’ me. So if you’re reading this, you dont have to be married, have kids or meet society’s standards to feel fulfilled/complete. Thanks for reading my rant 😅.