I have a friend who liked me. Unfortunately i dont see myself being in a relationship with him. I tried to see if i can try to like him. We kissed but theres no spark. So i told him to be just friends. And i think he is ok with that. Years passed by. We still talk. There are also times when i sleepover at his place coz its already late. And nothing happens. We just sleep side by side. Since he is not taking advantage of me i trusted him.

One day, i invited him to my place. We were watching a movie when i suddenly got sleepy. I told him he can continue to watch while i nap. He said ok.

And then i felt him lay down beside me.i trusted him so i just let him. He then hugged me from behind. I did not think anything wrong with it as i trusted him. He then touched me down there. Of course thats not ok with me so i removed his hand. He did it again. So i removed his hand again. Then he forcefully pulled down myl undergarments.He then forced himself to me from behind.

I was shocked. I want to stop him but i cant. Once he is done he went the bathroom and talked to me as if nothing happened. Then he left.

I was speechless.

I told my friend about it and she said i invited the guy over so i am asking for it. And its already a given that since its just us that something will happen. Plus the fact that we kissed before.

I have not spoken to him since that day.

Is it my fault? Did i led him on to make him do that?