I don’t want to live with MIL

My partner and I have been renting with my SIL for the past year. We’ve decided that once our lease comes, we’d go our separate ways. We cannot afford even a 1bd in our area so we’re left with moving in with my parents for a while. I plan to return to work in October once my old jobs starts hiring again for seasonal and hope they’ll keep me on permanently seeing as I’ve worked there in the past. Once I’m stable at the job, I’m hoping we’d be able to finally afford our own apartment and live on our own with our daughter. No worries about anybody else. My partner wants to buy a house though with my mil. Meaning we’d be living with her. And although I don’t have any problems with her, I was really excited of the idea of it being just us. Even if we are in an apartment. I’m tired of living with other people. So many issues come with it. Only reason we’re moving in with my parents is because as of right now, we don’t have any other options until I have a job. I’ve expressed on many occasions when he brings up living with his mom that I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to live with people anymore. We lived with her for a year when I was pregnant and even though there was never any issues, I never felt at home. Always felt like I was tiptoeing. Never felt comfortable going in the kitchen to cook because it didn’t feel like MY home. I’d lock myself in our room the entire day or drive to my parents house and spend the day there. I don’t want to do that again. I know our dream is a house that’s OURS, that we can do whatever we want to it. But I just can’t do it. And I don’t know how many times I have to tell my partner this before he gets it through his head. He told me this idea of buying a house with his mom and then revealed to me that he had already sent an agent all his info to see if they’d get approved for a loan….

@C I don’t know why I feel like I don’t have a right to an opinion on this 🥲 I have it drilled in my head that I’m not the breadwinner so there for I don’t get an opinion on where we live. I know that’s not right but I can’t help it. Even when I really want to say how I feel and say no, it’s like my brain shuts me up.