Relationship issue

Umm I’m faced with a very awkward situation. My boyfriend/baby daddy goes to therapy. Which is great good for him. The issue is, he has a crush on his therapist. He will get up, take a shower and put cologne on but only on days he goes to the therapist appointment. Which is an issue bc he’s looking his best for a therapist and doesn’t even do this stuff when he’s around me. Today is a therapist day, I went to the bathroom after he left and noticed cologne smell in the air. So I texted him and he said it smelled like I took a shower. Well, I certainly don’t wear mens cologne or use guys body wash. Plus the time I went pee before that time I didn’t smell that smell. I know my smells so I’m trying to figure out why he feels the need to lie about who he crushes on. Personally, I don’t want to be with a guy who has eyes for other women, or who tries to impress them. He’s still denying the entire thing but it’s obvious, it’s right in front of my face. He knows that if he agrees to what I say I’m going to ask him to switch therapists. We have had plenty of relationship issues, but he’s scared to tell the truth because he knows I won’t stick around for him to be interested in other women no matter who it is. I deserve someone’s full attention and their best. If he put this much effort into our relationship and paid more attention to me, we would have a damn good relationship. For the record, im also having some self confidence issues myself. I just had my baby 7 weeks ago, just got cleared for sex, but also my body is so much different then it used to be. Far as stretch marks, vagina is different and i still am heavy with the weight I put on. He doesn’t understand im looking for honesty, not bullshit lies. I want to be wanted, I want to feel like im truly loved. He’s been helping me out with my bills since I haven’t gotten a job yet, he gets me anything I want/need but the issue is, I don’t feel like he loves me for me which actually creates trust issues when he does all this stuff for his therapist when in reality I can read between the lines and I know what’s what. Since he helps me out financially that’s supposed to mean I believe this dude actually loves me. I’m just looking for him to come clean so that I can either truly accept it or if I can’t I can move on with my entire life because I truly deserve someone’s best just the way he gives it to other women.

Update: I’m not obsessed with smelling the bathroom after he leaves. I went pee and noticed a smell I didn’t smell the last time I went pee. I asked him about it and he put it on me saying I used mens products to shower with. I have my own stuff to shower with. I don’t use his stuff in the bathroom. We live together, no need to and if I ever used anyone else’s products it would be the baby’s stuff, not his. Regardless yeah maybe I should go to therapy sometime. Maybe I will see what it’s like to have a crush on my therapist. Then deny it if I’m asked. Honestly he can like whoever he wants I just don’t need the guy hurting me in the process so when I ask a question that I know the answers too, he should just admit it vs trying to make me feel like the crazy person.