Pregnancy blues

I hope it's okay to post this here.

I really need to vent and talk to someone as I'm finding it difficult to trust the people in my life, apart from my partner.

I'm 6 months pregnant and we were so happy and excited to welcome our little one soon.

I finished up therapy after 5 years, got the help I needed and felt great after my time was up.

A few months passed and then I had a call from social services last week.

I've had to be assessed a few days ago, they will get reports from anyone who has dealt with me the last 5 years, if they say something is wrong then it will go to child protection conference, next step is care.

I'm heartbroken that my baby is at risk of being taken away after the birth, no mother should have to go through that.

It's hard to be happy and excited, I look at all of his clothes and belongings in my room, I have everything ready and feel a sadness, as if I've already lost him.

The system is very cruel in Ireland as my past has always been used against me "I was in care as a child and suffered abuse"

I just want to give my baby a good life but it seems impossible to move on with my life.

I'm terrified.

It's heartbreaking how they break up loving families in Ireland and in the UK.

No disrespect to the good and genuine social workers out there.

It just seems most of them in Ireland are cruel and heartless.

This has been very difficult on my partner also, he is upset and disappointed, it's hard to understand this is happening, it all feels like a bad dream.