I need to vent

I recently had an abortion, due to my mental health. I was dealing with prenatal depression. My partner and I both agreed to have one for the safety of my mental health. It was not an easy decision and I still cry about it. After my abortion my family called me really rude names like ( murder, baby killer, cunt, etc..) and my mom even prayed I would never conceive again. I then had to leave my province because I was at the edge of committing suicide. So I left for two months. During all that my partner was one foot in and one foot out. While I was gone he lied to me a few times and told me I wasn’t pure. After I came back, I decided to give my relationship another chance because I felt like I owed it. Fast forward, we have been doing well. I recently god a new job and got my self an apartment. But now, when my partner and I try ti be intimate, my body no longer gets turned on. And I’m not sure if this was all the trauma that I endured.. but I am currently in therapy , and I also doing abortion counselling as well…