Wish I had known

I regret not pumping more milk when baby had just been born. My little one is 7 weeks now. I pump about 60mls (~2oz) about an hour after breastfeeding. Probably 120mls 2-3 hours after breastfeeding. My breasts still leak while baby is on the one side and milk flows out when I have a let down. I would say I have enough milk. But the problem is, my baby wants more.

Like many, I googled how much milk, and asked my midwife. They said 2oz is enough. So I pumped only 60mls for 5 minutes once a day. (I only give a bottle once a day just to get baby used to it, and pump for days I need a babysitter so the goal is to store enough milk) once I had about a weeks worth, I skipped pumping. I didn't want to be an over producer. Then I talked to real mom's and what they were giving. "4oz!" They said. pumping 15 minutes they said. Baby was almost 6 weeks. I asked my midwife to confirm how much I should give. She said he can drink 90-130mls. She assumed baby is getting that on the breast. So I started to combine give 2 packs of frozen milk to make it to atleast 90mls. And I started storing atleast 90ml to 120mls for future use and pumping 15 minutes. This meant suddenly, my weeks worth of milk was down to 4 days. I was pumping to rebuild my batch but between giving it to baby everyday, leaving baby with a baby sitter who would give up to 180mls (6oz) and feeding on demand, I just can't seem to restore my batch. I only have 2 120mls of milk in my freezer. My mom said I shouldnt restrict the baby, baby stops when he is full so once I tried to just give milk until he stops and he drunk 130mls. Also had someone pour my milk by accident. To say am panicking is an understatement. I wish I had pumped more at the beginning. And everyone just keeps telling me how I have so much milk, they don't understand that I need them to not waste my frozen milk. Am struggling. I am eating under pressure to just produce produce produce. And this ain't easy with a toddler demanding. I wish I hadn't restricted myself in those first days when I was getting sick from so much milk. Ps. I breastfeed on demand so sometimes am breastfeeding immediately after pumping.

My first refused the bottle and didn't eat much so I didn't struggle. But also he doesn't eat so having a baby that eats is sth I really wanted and now I have an over feeder.