He said Eww……

So we’ve been married a while and lately it’s hard to get sex out of him- he’s very vanilla I never was… but over the years I’ve learned to go without so much of the things I like It’s like … ok whatever as long as we can have sex sometimes…. Anywho, porn he watches it all the time in secret , u kno rushing to switch the page when u walk in - erasing history blah blah blah- so I’m get mad upset feel like I’m not enough same story as you always hear…. So tonight we both had several adult beverages and I’m thinking woohoo he’s still awake I might get lucky - things re going ok- whiskey dick but it finally comes around and (did i mention he is literally a silent Sex ‘r - usually no no side no emotion v a n I l l a) he goes to move his d””” and I’m. All excited and wet cuz well hell I never get sec let alone drunk sec anymore - he grabs it to put it backk in as we moved down the bed - and he says Eww- like his d””” was wet from me, and he says Eww - wtf - w the actual f - I’m seriously about to give up - I can’t compete w porn , he doesn’t put in nearly what I do - I have to basically beg for vanilla ass sex - and now he says ew bcuz I’m wet ?! Then acts like he never said anything but he knows I heard it cuz I of course lose allll my mojo and he sighs like I’m the one doing something wrong - wtf do I do any more?